Wow, I can't believe the CP is only 42 days away!! All of this happened for me so fast. A month ago I was sure I was declining this opportunity as I was very confident I would be getting the promotion I applied for at my current job. And as we all know, I didn't...and here I am. I haven't even told my job I'm leaving yet..I've been waiting to tell the head manager before everyone else because I feel as though I owe it to her to tell her before she finds out from everyone else. She's been there for me through everything, and the first time I did the CP she let me take a leave of absense to come back after despite that being against company rules. I'm not going to ask to come back this time...she risked it once for me and this time i'll be gone a lot longer, with 2 extra months at Disney and then 4 more months at sea. But I really need to see her soon, otherwise i'll have no choice. We have mandatory staff meetings tonight, so hoepfully she will be there then. I'm nervous to tell her, primarily because that makes it real that i'm leaving...and soon. Jordan's has been the highlight of my college career. I've hated the actual college part of college, but I started at Jordan's my freshmen year and it has been amazing since day one. I work with the most amazing people, have so much fun at my job, and just feel so blessed to have had the last 2+ years there. I wish I didn't have to grow up so that I could stay there forever - and honestly, thats why I went for management..to stay there forever. But since that didn't really work out for me, I have to say goodbye. I'm excited for the future, but it will be one of the hardest things I have done to say goodbye. The only thing that will be harder to say goodbye to is my cat, Sunshine.
Sunshine is very, very sick, and I have a bad feeling she won't be here anymore by time I get back. She's been my cat since the day she was born. She was born to a stray cat living in my grandmothers yard, and we knew from the second that cat got pregnant that we were going to take the kittens. We would have taken the mother too, but she ran away every time anyone approached her. It was horrible taking babies from a mother, but those kittens would not have survived living there. Anyway, I met Sunshine the day that she was born - it was august 1st, 1998 and my grandmother called and said the kittens had been born - I was 9. We went over and the kittens hid in teh bushes, but we saw them. We went over every day for the next month, and slowly the 5 kittens started coming out to see us. On September 1st - my first day of 4th grade - we went over after school and took the kittens and brought them home. At this point one had already died, so we knew we were doing the right thing by taking the other for. Each of the kids (my brother and I, and our two neighbors) picked out a kitten to be ours - and I choose Sunshine. She's been my baby ever since. I fed her, slept with her, pet her, played with her, and for the past year got up at 530 every morning to give her insulin shots. But she's very very sick, and isn't getting better no matter what medicine we give her. I know that when I leave it might very well be the last time I see her. And that kills me.
Anyway, I set out for this post to be an update post - not a "what i'll miss" post. There will be one of those, with Sunshine and Jordans at 1 and 2, but this was meant to be more of an update. So, today after class I'm meeting with the CP advisor at my school to get everything figured out for Disney. Then I have my work meeting where I'll hopefully tell Lori I'm leaving, if I see her. On Tuesday, I'm talking to my honors thesis advisor and telling him I need to push back my thesis for an entire year because I won't be in Salem. I'm nervous about this - and hoping he will still agree to be my advisor in a year, but I guess it's not the end of the world if he says no. Then, on Thursday I am attending the study abroad orienation. I should be attending this in the fall, but as I will be about 10 states to the South, thats not really possible. So they will show me how to get everything straightened out for semester at sea and get my classes approved. Classes end this week, but finals stretch until the end of next week, so offices will be open to get this stuff figured out I hope. And then I'll be good to go. I gotta do lots of Disney shopping though, but i'll have time. This summer was supposed to be filled with 2 summer classes and an honors thesis - but since I'm graduting a semester late rather than a semester early, it isn't filled with anything until I leave. I'm sad and nervous about leaving, but excited for this adventure. I thought I had my whole life planned out - but now I'm just as clueless as ever - and that scares me.
On a side note - Captain EO is back to disney starting in July. I LOVEEEE MJ <3 <3.
I don't re-read what I write before I post it, so I apoligize for the spelling/gramatical/structural errors, and my rambling. I just find it more real if I go with the flow rather than stop to revise. I could revise at the end, but I don't care that much :).
<3 Allie
Monday, May 3, 2010
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